AN AFFAIR

an affair
is an affair
is an affair

and so I thought

give me a blonde with big tits I always joked

they usually last about three months, affairs
ask anybody
they’ll tell you I’m right if they’re honest

fucks and lunches
dinner and dances
pain and hurt
lies and lies and always lying
ducking and diving and loads of guilt

it’s tiring stuff

and when it’s over you say never again
until the next time
and the next time its just the same

and the next time arrived for me
quite suddenly

“are you married” she asked
“yes, with three kids, two wives, (one ex)
please get me a castle”

she went to fetch the beer; I got into the jacuzzi

“do you want me to join you in there”
"whatever” I said
she undressed gloriously and sat at the edge of the tub rather

we spoke smallish talk and I found her interesting
and she was beautiful to me

my 15 minutes in the tub were up
and I got out and we screwed the rest of the allotted paid-for time,
45 minutes

that’s where this affair was conceived
in the belly of a brothel

but I saw her again soon outside of that place
I broke the hymen of her secret life
into her real her
into her virgin soul

and became a willing midwife
and helped give birth to this affair
and I became no longer a client
she no longer a whore
the only price paid was pain
love the only thing exchanged

when the river bursts its banks
when the dam explodes
when the earth shudders
that’s how we made love

I’d tell her she was a star
the moon, a single burning sun
and we’d come

and we got our souls all tied up
tangled and untangled
knotted and unknotted
joined and broken

and now when I love her deep deep
she’s run away.

Three months is up.